18/9/09 晴-- 嗯,很快的~!! 考试结束了~ 总可以轻松一下了~
再也不用读书到天亮了咯~太好了~当然，第一件事要做的是好好休息！！
19/9/09 雨～shopping ~~ shopping ~~!! 哇，去了midvalley 走走！～也去看了"Ｇ－ＦＯＲＣＥ" ... 第一次看3D 的！！！ 很excited !! 还带上那 一幅 立体眼睛~！看的画面， 真得很逼真！ 犹如抓得着眼前的情景一样～～！！
20/9/09 晴-- 今天是马来人的过年！ 每逢佳节， 城市总是比较的静～今天， 我们带了kakak ．． 一起到johnny 享用午餐～ 吃完后，我们到附近逛逛～
２２ 九 ０９ 晴：今天，很开心～！！因为跟老公仔，美凤姐 到金河走走~！
哇， 超享受买东西的过程~ 可能有人给意见吧~！！
23/9/09 晴： “康成之日” 今天到康城走走~！！嗯， 可能之前买 够了~ 所以有点的累了。。走到一半就喊累了~ 但最后还是有买到我的东西。哈哈！所以， 还好拉！！
BaCk 2 Me..lacca
Sunday, 02 august 09..
miss u so much ...my dear grandma.. ,
today v r going bac to our kampung (melacca)..since for a long period i had not going bac to visit her ..,miss u so much ..i know i m bad,, cnt always visited to u grandma..im so sry about that ..Besides, my dear is also come along v us ..wah~ i m so happy ...it also quite a long period that he din come to my house ..it feel so good..
As Usual, Im the last person who finish prepared..therefore, many things are not completed prepared.it juz lik kelam kabut until i 4get to bring my toothbrush ..O gosh ..what should i do ?how cn i survive without a toothbrush?haha ..it is unbeliveable..im sure that my bad breath will make people sick..
after v had taken our break+ lunch ..we started our journey ..it wasn't look good ...It is lunch hour. Traffic jam o over the road.wawoo ..v juz lik a little caterpillar keep crawling on the long road..by move on little by little . We were smooth until v reached the coughnut street!! wahaha...
i m pretty tired ..i slept all the way bac to melacca.. once i m in the car, i started my dream ..haha ..it is because the day b4 , i'm rushing my assignment and homewrok .This is what a college life..i had use to it..
we reached around 2 hours of journey..although there have some traffic jam .but , it doesn't make us really sick about it.
finally,we reached Melacca.. wawoo ..everything changes..cousins are all getting bigger, grandma's are also getting white..but , the passion of my heart will never decline.hehe ..love them to much ..
HAPPY MOMENT V FAMILYS
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erm , nothign special until the nite.. after v had prepared ,v went to uncle's house ..hehe ..erm ..everybody gather around and eat durian ...wawoo , every siblings are sitting together .. i LOve this kind of feeling..it really impressed me. although , there are not of the cousins are in ..but , it makes me think bac , when i was still a little gal, cousins and i are always stick together .. As v growthn up, several reason has make us apart..it cant continue lik previous time tat v always play together ..but this nite ..v did it ..not juz cousins .. it comes to mummy's siblings too ..happy and enjoyable moment ..
SuPPeR
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well , it doesn't make us full enough ..therefore, around mid 12.. the young batch went to supper ..haha ..Dear, Felicia, Patricia, patrick and me .. v gather at "kai ma" house .. and go to have our supper..haha ..i tot v are going to eat satay culuk ..my favorioute .. but . ~~ H1n1 .. so ... v din go ..v change to eat duck mee. .~
this is the 1st time i eat the real duck mee (besides instant nood) haha ..erm ..it taste great ..and some more v have a drink ..i had ordered long gan ice milk..(nice)
Morning Mass
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i m late again ..haha ..v r rush to church ..im so sry ..~ dnt know y ..im owes b the last one ..haha ..erm ..daddy drive his naza and fecth us to church ..wawoo ..our car is fully seated ..hehe . . initially, v stand at the corner of the church ..there are no chair 4 us to sit..haha ..(served me rite) gaga .. suddenly i get a call frm daddy said that there are some chairs there ..wawoo...therefore, we go to him ..hehe ..
i dnt lik this father, honestly,.. because he talk nothing besides money ..wawoo ~~ bored to hear tat .. the time passed by slowly ..and finally ..the mass is end .
BaB@ & NYonyA's
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v went to eat wan tan mee after church ..it is a old shoplot that full of customer...this wan tan mee has sold since i was young ..it is quite famous ..and i knew my dad really liks this "wan TAn MEe" ... everytimes v bac to melacca , he will always eat this wan tan mee .. i heard my daddy say. they looks lik chinese,but actually they are baba nyonya ..therefore, they doesnt speak fluent mandarin..mayb some malay and a little bit of mandarin only..
Long Nap
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after lunch , i took a looooonnggg nap ..aroung 4 hours of nap ..wawoo ..i dont know y im so tired ..mayb when i bac to hometown ..i will feel vry relax and is time 4 me to have a good rest.
B@c To HOme ..
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around 8 something ..v started our journey ...and bac to our home ..during the journey ..it appears little traffic jam ... but after some times ..it goes bac to smooth ..end up ..v reached home around 10 p.m.
hapi bfday ..Mummy !!
Happy birthday to mummy ...
25th of July, Sunny - Today is my mum's birthday ..on the other hand, my cousin has visited me on the same day too.. wawoo..i m pretty busy on that day!!
On this day, i get up a little bit early than normal day! bcs i had made a appointment v the dentist to have checked up with my teeth! ...Bored ~~
on the half way checking, my cousin has reached there! wawoo ..i m so excited to have a look on her bf ..haha ..we took them back tomy house from old town (rampai)..!~
Precious Lunnch
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after we had prepared, jay..wei ..Rui( wei's bf) and me went to midvalley to have our lunnch.im so hungry, bcs i have eat nothing ..pretty hungry ,..but luckily, within 20 min , we reached there.
We enjoy our lunnch in a thai Restauran! i had ordered a tomyam fried rice,! but ...it is too spicy 4 me ..i cnt even eat half of the rice..dear juz exchange the food v me ..! thank u .my dear ..!
i tot v will have a enjoyable time in the shopping mall, crazying shop ..,unfortunately , after our lunmch ..they planned to bac ..
thank u ..Wei nd Rui ..for buying a beautiful cake 4 my mum ..haha ..after they fecthed us bac , they continue on their plan ...hang out again ..i dnt know where r they going..but i m pretty tired on tat time.
JusCo
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although im tired, but comes to "Shopping"..WAwoo ..iwill become passion ..after tat, Mei fong ,jay n me when to Jj..haha ..this times i bring along my little baby Kenneth ..
while v ( MF n ME ) are shopping, jay has done a great duty ..looking at my baby ..thank 4 ur loves ya ..my dear ..im so luckily to have u this Bf ..thank u ...he did a great job. .mayb in others eye ..it doesn't means anything, but 4 me ..i will add on the marks to him..
He bring KEnneth to playground n play there ..
i know he is a good person, caring and ..Gud person ..thank u my dear ..u makes my baby happy..same goes to me ..i will also feel happy to have u ...thank u ..He spend RM 8 for my kenenth ..haha ...kenneth is juz enjoying the playground ..
Dinner
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we had our Dinner at K.S ..we always do that when someone's bfday ..therefore , nothing is surprise!~~ but , daddy enter a wrong way , and make us waiting for so long for the dinner ...
8 something only v reached the place.. v r so hungry man ..fortunately , the food are fast ..if not ..wawoo
i think im faint ..wahaha
Happy Bfday
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Happy bfday to u ..hapi bfday to u ..happii bfday to Mummy ,! happi Bfday to u ...
Mum , happy bfday .!! ~~
25th of July, Sunny - Today is my mum's birthday ..on the other hand, my cousin has visited me on the same day too.. wawoo..i m pretty busy on that day!!
On this day, i get up a little bit early than normal day! bcs i had made a appointment v the dentist to have checked up with my teeth! ...Bored ~~
on the half way checking, my cousin has reached there! wawoo ..i m so excited to have a look on her bf ..haha ..we took them back tomy house from old town (rampai)..!~
Precious Lunnch
-----------------
after we had prepared, jay..wei ..Rui( wei's bf) and me went to midvalley to have our lunnch.im so hungry, bcs i have eat nothing ..pretty hungry ,..but luckily, within 20 min , we reached there.
We enjoy our lunnch in a thai Restauran! i had ordered a tomyam fried rice,! but ...it is too spicy 4 me ..i cnt even eat half of the rice..dear juz exchange the food v me ..! thank u .my dear ..!
i tot v will have a enjoyable time in the shopping mall, crazying shop ..,unfortunately , after our lunmch ..they planned to bac ..
thank u ..Wei nd Rui ..for buying a beautiful cake 4 my mum ..haha ..after they fecthed us bac , they continue on their plan ...hang out again ..i dnt know where r they going..but i m pretty tired on tat time.
JusCo
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although im tired, but comes to "Shopping"..WAwoo ..iwill become passion ..after tat, Mei fong ,jay n me when to Jj..haha ..this times i bring along my little baby Kenneth ..
while v ( MF n ME ) are shopping, jay has done a great duty ..looking at my baby ..thank 4 ur loves ya ..my dear ..im so luckily to have u this Bf ..thank u ...he did a great job. .mayb in others eye ..it doesn't means anything, but 4 me ..i will add on the marks to him..
He bring KEnneth to playground n play there ..
i know he is a good person, caring and ..Gud person ..thank u my dear ..u makes my baby happy..same goes to me ..i will also feel happy to have u ...thank u ..He spend RM 8 for my kenenth ..haha ...kenneth is juz enjoying the playground ..
Dinner
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we had our Dinner at K.S ..we always do that when someone's bfday ..therefore , nothing is surprise!~~ but , daddy enter a wrong way , and make us waiting for so long for the dinner ...
8 something only v reached the place.. v r so hungry man ..fortunately , the food are fast ..if not ..wawoo
i think im faint ..wahaha
Happy Bfday
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Happy bfday to u ..hapi bfday to u ..happii bfday to Mummy ,! happi Bfday to u ...
Mum , happy bfday .!! ~~
MaicS@
MAICSA
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11 July, Saturday..Sunny;
Today , i woke at 5 o'clock in the morning....i m so excited ..because today our school are having a TAlk for us..it is
...MAICSA( Malaysia Institute Ceat Secretary Administration)..
WAwoo.. .. i m having a nice day today ..really fun ..
in the beginning of the function, we have our presidents to give their welcome address.. maybe i wake up in the early morning ..therefore i was pretty tired in that moment..try to awake..but still fail to do it ..i just sleep through the section. By the way, some of the students are sleeping in the hall too.. this make me braver to do so ..^.^
After this , we have our breakfast .wawoo ..the breakfast has gain a bad response from us..it is not nice ..haha ..but ..i m still eat it ..because i m so hungry. Besides, i oso saw many of my friends( senior) in the hall ..im so glad and happy that they are there ..the familiar face wont make me so nervous all the time..haha..
Amazing Race
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After having our breakfast, we are ready for our game session( amazing Race) .On the other hand it's also the time to break us up from the group ..But fortunately ..basically are equavalent ..erm ,for our group ..v have 4 new girls enter our group..wawoo ..it is happy to know them.although i still cant recognise their name ..but i pretty sure that we had created a friendship among the group members.
Our group is ~ GoVernance ~ ..haha .. well , basicly we are juz enjoying those game..it also taught me much how to created communication with the members and gain some tips of games for YCS later ..haha ..eRm ..It is enjoyable ..having fun all through the games...really fun ..haha ..
Game section:
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1 . hand and leg with the number
2. baloon with each part of our body
3. memorize and walk through the ice path with bare foot
4. blow the ping pang ball until become ibecome a old lady
haha .. and the last game has been cancel because of the time is over ..
Our Precious LUnnch
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wawoo.. after the games ,most of us are so energetic ..haha ..everyone is started to snap photo with their friends ...haha ...for sure ..i am also one of them ..v are just keep on take photo to each other ... i am enjoying the process of taking photo ..it just lik everybody are grouped together to share and chat ... lik this feeling ..vry secure for me ..
WEll ...it took quite long time for us to have our luNnch ,,...it is because ..our food has gone to Kepong area ..=.="' ..swt ..therefore we are just waiting..keep on waiting ..from the words "On the Way...10 minutes ..5 minutes ...and lastly we get our food .. it does make all of us crazy ..and everybody was just enjoy their food silently ..haha
After Lunnch .. the next programme is sharing experiences ..erm ..mayb from here ..i get some idea about my future ..although i dnt know whether in future i can success to finish this study or not ..but ..an idea comes to my mind is ..Now is the time to study ..after school is the time for me to work ...not learn ..as they said .. study continuosly ...and focus on wat teacher say while lecturing ..i think it should be not hard to achieve the goal ..
The highest peak of the event.. the indoor section ...wawoo ..this game is so funny ..haha ..everybody is required to act out the word..haha ..it comes so many funny action ..got Transformer..got MJ ..Mr. bean
haha .. the cutest is Sperm ??!!! ... lol ..everybody is so shy to act out this action.. But we get funs from the games ..really enjoyable ..haha ..
Lastly ...is the Dancing section ..everybody is just reached highest peak ,,,shouting and cri de couers ..SYOK ...haha ...
Happy day ..happy to spent whole day here ..it worth ..besides the accident(LunNch) ..haha ..everything is nice and Good ...Happy ^.<
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11 July, Saturday..Sunny;
Today , i woke at 5 o'clock in the morning....i m so excited ..because today our school are having a TAlk for us..it is
...MAICSA( Malaysia Institute Ceat Secretary Administration)..
WAwoo.. .. i m having a nice day today ..really fun ..
in the beginning of the function, we have our presidents to give their welcome address.. maybe i wake up in the early morning ..therefore i was pretty tired in that moment..try to awake..but still fail to do it ..i just sleep through the section. By the way, some of the students are sleeping in the hall too.. this make me braver to do so ..^.^
After this , we have our breakfast .wawoo ..the breakfast has gain a bad response from us..it is not nice ..haha ..but ..i m still eat it ..because i m so hungry. Besides, i oso saw many of my friends( senior) in the hall ..im so glad and happy that they are there ..the familiar face wont make me so nervous all the time..haha..
Amazing Race
==========
After having our breakfast, we are ready for our game session( amazing Race) .On the other hand it's also the time to break us up from the group ..But fortunately ..basically are equavalent ..erm ,for our group ..v have 4 new girls enter our group..wawoo ..it is happy to know them.although i still cant recognise their name ..but i pretty sure that we had created a friendship among the group members.
Our group is ~ GoVernance ~ ..haha .. well , basicly we are juz enjoying those game..it also taught me much how to created communication with the members and gain some tips of games for YCS later ..haha ..eRm ..It is enjoyable ..having fun all through the games...really fun ..haha ..
Game section:
-------------
1 . hand and leg with the number
2. baloon with each part of our body
3. memorize and walk through the ice path with bare foot
4. blow the ping pang ball until become ibecome a old lady
haha .. and the last game has been cancel because of the time is over ..
Our Precious LUnnch
===============
wawoo.. after the games ,most of us are so energetic ..haha ..everyone is started to snap photo with their friends ...haha ...for sure ..i am also one of them ..v are just keep on take photo to each other ... i am enjoying the process of taking photo ..it just lik everybody are grouped together to share and chat ... lik this feeling ..vry secure for me ..
WEll ...it took quite long time for us to have our luNnch ,,...it is because ..our food has gone to Kepong area ..=.="' ..swt ..therefore we are just waiting..keep on waiting ..from the words "On the Way...10 minutes ..5 minutes ...and lastly we get our food .. it does make all of us crazy ..and everybody was just enjoy their food silently ..haha
After Lunnch .. the next programme is sharing experiences ..erm ..mayb from here ..i get some idea about my future ..although i dnt know whether in future i can success to finish this study or not ..but ..an idea comes to my mind is ..Now is the time to study ..after school is the time for me to work ...not learn ..as they said .. study continuosly ...and focus on wat teacher say while lecturing ..i think it should be not hard to achieve the goal ..
The highest peak of the event.. the indoor section ...wawoo ..this game is so funny ..haha ..everybody is required to act out the word..haha ..it comes so many funny action ..got Transformer..got MJ ..Mr. bean
haha .. the cutest is Sperm ??!!! ... lol ..everybody is so shy to act out this action.. But we get funs from the games ..really enjoyable ..haha ..
Lastly ...is the Dancing section ..everybody is just reached highest peak ,,,shouting and cri de couers ..SYOK ...haha ...
Happy day ..happy to spent whole day here ..it worth ..besides the accident(LunNch) ..haha ..everything is nice and Good ...Happy ^.<
你是我的 。好姐妹
你是我的好姐妹
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7 月３号， 晴；
家里独生女的我，从小就渴望有姐妹的疼爱！ 小时候，我有很多的知己！可能年龄还嫩，没想到这样的复杂！但随着年龄的成长，知己可是慢慢的变少了！我很荣欣能在茫茫人海中，找到了一个好姐妹的知己！
她……
我也忘了我们是几时认识的，但我知道我们是主日学的同学！她是一个很害臊的女孩！ 不多话说，总是静静的坐在一旁！
直到……
在我中学的时候，我还记得，又一次的生活营里， 我看到了她的成长！是营里的一个奇迹！从不说话的她，变得肯站在前面分享！虽然事隔了很久， 但在我的脑海里还是很清晰！ 看着她一步步的往前面的舞台站上！ 我的心很安慰！ 因为，看到她的参与！ 我很开心·真的！
就是这样， 我们就认识了·我们开始了我们的友情！我还记得， 那时候的她还是很害臊！但，我知道，她再也不像以前那样了！她会主动地参与,分享！很开心
随着学青的成立，中秋晚会，报佳音， 学青的一次的生活营…………慢慢的我们就一点一点的建立起了我们的友谊！我，马德里，她！ 可称得上是好姐妹·
她，
已变得开朗的女孩，爱听日本的歌！爱鼓励我！ 她是我的最佳的聆听者！
做了很多的事情， 让我觉得很感动！犹如 第一次和她一起创作！！
在我最低落时，
是她，第一个懂得！我从没告诉她！
但她就像是天主派给我的天使，
每当不开心，是她…… 给我安慰，给我诉苦··
谢谢你！
我们虽不是时常见面， 见面时间可说是少之又少！ 但我们的感情不会因而改变！ 可能称得上是正真的姐妹吧！
我不知这不是巧遇，而是天主的安排
谢谢你！嘉歆
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7 月３号， 晴；
家里独生女的我，从小就渴望有姐妹的疼爱！ 小时候，我有很多的知己！可能年龄还嫩，没想到这样的复杂！但随着年龄的成长，知己可是慢慢的变少了！我很荣欣能在茫茫人海中，找到了一个好姐妹的知己！
她……
我也忘了我们是几时认识的，但我知道我们是主日学的同学！她是一个很害臊的女孩！ 不多话说，总是静静的坐在一旁！
直到……
在我中学的时候，我还记得，又一次的生活营里， 我看到了她的成长！是营里的一个奇迹！从不说话的她，变得肯站在前面分享！虽然事隔了很久， 但在我的脑海里还是很清晰！ 看着她一步步的往前面的舞台站上！ 我的心很安慰！ 因为，看到她的参与！ 我很开心·真的！
就是这样， 我们就认识了·我们开始了我们的友情！我还记得， 那时候的她还是很害臊！但，我知道，她再也不像以前那样了！她会主动地参与,分享！很开心
随着学青的成立，中秋晚会，报佳音， 学青的一次的生活营…………慢慢的我们就一点一点的建立起了我们的友谊！我，马德里，她！ 可称得上是好姐妹·
她，
已变得开朗的女孩，爱听日本的歌！爱鼓励我！ 她是我的最佳的聆听者！
做了很多的事情， 让我觉得很感动！犹如 第一次和她一起创作！！
在我最低落时，
是她，第一个懂得！我从没告诉她！
但她就像是天主派给我的天使，
每当不开心，是她…… 给我安慰，给我诉苦··
谢谢你！
我们虽不是时常见面， 见面时间可说是少之又少！ 但我们的感情不会因而改变！ 可能称得上是正真的姐妹吧！
我不知这不是巧遇，而是天主的安排
谢谢你！嘉歆
噩梦
DBU7--友谊
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2009 ，7 月3 日， 晴；
天气晴朗的早上， 我有如平常那样上课去！今天是星期五所以是妈妈载我去学校的！ 上完课后， 同学们犹如蜜蜂般的粘在一起，我们一伙一起去用餐！嗯，近来大家都熟系了大家！所以，当大家参在一起时，都不会有什么的代沟！
为了找回自己，所以我也选择各种管道来找自己！可能，这也是一个很好的管道！一大班朋友在一起哈拉时，很开心 没有压力！可能慢慢的懂了，原来这也不会做些什么不好的！ 只是一个地方， 有人认同你，有人关心，有人可以分担你的包袱！我会觉得，ｅｅ．．是我想多了！
大家一起聚餐，不算难的！但我很珍惜！ 我会很享受这份友谊！我想他也是一样！只是，我的约束，让他和朋友之间必须要被破坏！ 对不起，可能我会很怕， 怕寂寞，怕有一天犹如电视剧里的情节！ 离开了我！ …………
可怕的噩梦
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在同一天里， 我也接到了不好的消息！ 让我的心很难过，犹如被打破的心灵！我接到了（他母亲）伯母真实了不好的结果！ 哇， 我的眼泪忍不出要出来了！ 但我不敢， 因为怕伤害他！ 当我一人在房间时， 我不知不觉地哭了！
为什么哭？！ 因为我对不起她！ 伯母，对不起！ 虽然想亲口跟她说， 但没这勇气！平时，他总是来我家，陪我，但我却忽略了她！
亲爱的母亲， 没人在家宁愿在家默默的等待， 也不出声！ 她， 是一个很好的母亲！ 可称得上是好母亲！ 可是，我却因为要人陪， 而被逼忽略了她！ 现在，我的心真的有点难过！
我会为她祈祷，
我不懂啊爸，父！是否会聆听！ 但我相信你的旨意！ 我相信， 你有你的安排！ 我把她完全的奉献在你的手上！ 请求你的带领，赐她力量去打败这病吧！ 愿主与你同在！
阿门！！
亲爱的， 你要坚强！无论多难的困苦，我也会与你度过的！ 加油！
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2009 ，7 月3 日， 晴；
天气晴朗的早上， 我有如平常那样上课去！今天是星期五所以是妈妈载我去学校的！ 上完课后， 同学们犹如蜜蜂般的粘在一起，我们一伙一起去用餐！嗯，近来大家都熟系了大家！所以，当大家参在一起时，都不会有什么的代沟！
为了找回自己，所以我也选择各种管道来找自己！可能，这也是一个很好的管道！一大班朋友在一起哈拉时，很开心 没有压力！可能慢慢的懂了，原来这也不会做些什么不好的！ 只是一个地方， 有人认同你，有人关心，有人可以分担你的包袱！我会觉得，ｅｅ．．是我想多了！
大家一起聚餐，不算难的！但我很珍惜！ 我会很享受这份友谊！我想他也是一样！只是，我的约束，让他和朋友之间必须要被破坏！ 对不起，可能我会很怕， 怕寂寞，怕有一天犹如电视剧里的情节！ 离开了我！ …………
可怕的噩梦
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在同一天里， 我也接到了不好的消息！ 让我的心很难过，犹如被打破的心灵！我接到了（他母亲）伯母真实了不好的结果！ 哇， 我的眼泪忍不出要出来了！ 但我不敢， 因为怕伤害他！ 当我一人在房间时， 我不知不觉地哭了！
为什么哭？！ 因为我对不起她！ 伯母，对不起！ 虽然想亲口跟她说， 但没这勇气！平时，他总是来我家，陪我，但我却忽略了她！
亲爱的母亲， 没人在家宁愿在家默默的等待， 也不出声！ 她， 是一个很好的母亲！ 可称得上是好母亲！ 可是，我却因为要人陪， 而被逼忽略了她！ 现在，我的心真的有点难过！
我会为她祈祷，
我不懂啊爸，父！是否会聆听！ 但我相信你的旨意！ 我相信， 你有你的安排！ 我把她完全的奉献在你的手上！ 请求你的带领，赐她力量去打败这病吧！ 愿主与你同在！
阿门！！
亲爱的， 你要坚强！无论多难的困苦，我也会与你度过的！ 加油！
- 我是谁？- -
七月 二日； 晴
祝福－
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现在是凌晨的3.56 分！ 但是，我无法入眠...虽然有时间可以睡, 但是心很不开心，矛盾！我不知道我到底是真么了！ 但是，最近很烦！学校的课业 和感情！ 让很辛苦,快要全不过气来了！‘
最近发生了很多事,让我也不敢再烦他了！我知道他忍受了很多的压力·我也知道，他不会要跟我讲，仿佛我现在这样！愿意在这里写，也不想告诉他！因为，我不想解释！ 不想再说！不想再烦他！因为我们再也会不像以前那样了！可能我说错了，但我心真的有点的碎了！要完美如以前，是不可能的事了！
人是不停的改变着，经过发生的事情，而改变自己来缓和那环境。犹如地球不停的在旋转那样！我不知道！ 我也不想！但是，我必须这样！ 很所时候，自己的执著，唯有让自己带来的麻烦而已！为什么要这样呢？有这个必要吗？
很多时候，我会如何埋怨，为什么？因为，只想到自己的利益! 为什么？！正真的我呢？还是这就是我？到底我会不开心到几时呢？是什么问题呢？
其实，我知道！ 昨天和JOSPEHINE 一起！ 她告诉了我很多很多！让我觉得我是那么的渺小！ 我知道的！我是多么的不成熟！
我会要他陪着我，我会要他天天想起我，但原来男生不是这样的！女生和男生的结构都不一样！我赞成！ 男生的EQ比女生得来的好！ 他们处理压力来的细腻！ 女生就会大发脾气！男生不会像你当他看不到你时！但女生这会无时无刻的想你…………
我呢？哈哈！ 当然是女生咯！ 会发脾气，会不开心·但我最不开心时，我就会躲在一旁的哭！ 因为不想解释，也不敢面对！ 这就是我！我想得到人家的许可，认同！ 我怕寂寞！ 我真得很怕！因为当我一个人时，可能就是我乱想的时候！
男生爱自由！同样这也是我难接受的事了！但是，我得要这样做！ 他，不属于我的物品！ 他又他的性格，朋友，他的爱好！我不能这样的绑着他！ 像关在笼子里的小鸟·一旦失去自由， 他宁愿死来解脱！ 当他过得好过你时，你应该祝福，而不是改变它· 不可以那人家和你比较！ 因为这会令你更辛苦！ 是的，我很辛苦！ 我真的很辛苦！ 想过放弃，但是有没有胆量去承受那压力！ 那到底我是怎样？！…………
我太集中于他了！ 当看的太多， 就会令你一只看到他的缺点！我知道，他已在这阶段了！ 我知道，我太过不成熟了！ 我可以有朋友（男），犹如他和女生一样的谈话！我知道，我再也不能像以前那样的傻！只会为他想，而改变了我！到最后，改变是没用的·……
我应该为自己想想！ 我也有我的性格！ 那以前快乐的我呢？去了哪？我一定要在他伤我时，找回自己，并祝福他的一切！ 开心……快乐……友谊！！！ 我不该再这样！我该是时候，找回我了！！！愿天上的啊爸，父，能赐给我力量！ 我需要勇气！
祝福－
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现在是凌晨的3.56 分！ 但是，我无法入眠...虽然有时间可以睡, 但是心很不开心，矛盾！我不知道我到底是真么了！ 但是，最近很烦！学校的课业 和感情！ 让很辛苦,快要全不过气来了！‘
最近发生了很多事,让我也不敢再烦他了！我知道他忍受了很多的压力·我也知道，他不会要跟我讲，仿佛我现在这样！愿意在这里写，也不想告诉他！因为，我不想解释！ 不想再说！不想再烦他！因为我们再也会不像以前那样了！可能我说错了，但我心真的有点的碎了！要完美如以前，是不可能的事了！
人是不停的改变着，经过发生的事情，而改变自己来缓和那环境。犹如地球不停的在旋转那样！我不知道！ 我也不想！但是，我必须这样！ 很所时候，自己的执著，唯有让自己带来的麻烦而已！为什么要这样呢？有这个必要吗？
很多时候，我会如何埋怨，为什么？因为，只想到自己的利益! 为什么？！正真的我呢？还是这就是我？到底我会不开心到几时呢？是什么问题呢？
其实，我知道！ 昨天和JOSPEHINE 一起！ 她告诉了我很多很多！让我觉得我是那么的渺小！ 我知道的！我是多么的不成熟！
我会要他陪着我，我会要他天天想起我，但原来男生不是这样的！女生和男生的结构都不一样！我赞成！ 男生的EQ比女生得来的好！ 他们处理压力来的细腻！ 女生就会大发脾气！男生不会像你当他看不到你时！但女生这会无时无刻的想你…………
我呢？哈哈！ 当然是女生咯！ 会发脾气，会不开心·但我最不开心时，我就会躲在一旁的哭！ 因为不想解释，也不敢面对！ 这就是我！我想得到人家的许可，认同！ 我怕寂寞！ 我真得很怕！因为当我一个人时，可能就是我乱想的时候！
男生爱自由！同样这也是我难接受的事了！但是，我得要这样做！ 他，不属于我的物品！ 他又他的性格，朋友，他的爱好！我不能这样的绑着他！ 像关在笼子里的小鸟·一旦失去自由， 他宁愿死来解脱！ 当他过得好过你时，你应该祝福，而不是改变它· 不可以那人家和你比较！ 因为这会令你更辛苦！ 是的，我很辛苦！ 我真的很辛苦！ 想过放弃，但是有没有胆量去承受那压力！ 那到底我是怎样？！…………
我太集中于他了！ 当看的太多， 就会令你一只看到他的缺点！我知道，他已在这阶段了！ 我知道，我太过不成熟了！ 我可以有朋友（男），犹如他和女生一样的谈话！我知道，我再也不能像以前那样的傻！只会为他想，而改变了我！到最后，改变是没用的·……
我应该为自己想想！ 我也有我的性格！ 那以前快乐的我呢？去了哪？我一定要在他伤我时，找回自己，并祝福他的一切！ 开心……快乐……友谊！！！ 我不该再这样！我该是时候，找回我了！！！愿天上的啊爸，父，能赐给我力量！ 我需要勇气！