1st Dec .. Tuesday


Today .. is a lawful day.. bcs the whole day class are having law..

Law Law LAw everywhere ..

Law tutorial
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v are having a lot of fun ... while waiting for the class start (tutorial)

haha .. Riang riang n jia wei are oways the leader of class (PLAYFUL )

the lead us sing "HAPPI BIRTHDAY" ..

For who ? who's birthday?

haha .. no one is birthday that day actually~!! mayb they are too stress ..

sch life~~~

finally , i update my blog ~~!!

thursday,3rd Dec 2009


Today , i din drive to sch .. bcs brother took the car to repair ~


nite ..


When to p.mlm v wei wei , panda, winn , Jason n me ~~~

5 of us ..

Went to Chatzroom .. yam cha ~~

^^ i din study today !!>.<"

my Messy Life..

Oh.. again .. i cnt sleep in the midnite ..

i hate this .. keep on wait .. waiting for u .. but always end up with nothing ..

My weekends ..

I miss shopping .. long time doesn't shopping dy ..although went to lowyat yesterday .. but .. v doesn't mean to have a walk .. really disapointed ..

i hate nowadays life style..

doing nothing everyday ..hate .. hate ..

everynite ..

i cnt sleep .. i dnt hv a proper life style now .. who can help me to fix it ??

who can come n company me over the nite ..

no ...

no one .. include u ..

DBU7 - - My dEarest Coursemate ..

What a Friend should Be .
DBU7 - the craziest ,happiest group..
31th Oct 2009 ..
What is Friend ? Friend is when u fall , they will raise u up.. when u sad ,, they will always right beside u ..console u .. company you .. when u happy .. they will share the happiness with u .. this is what a friend should Be ..

i really miss this life style .. the most powerful..most energetic .. enjoyable period. .. i really miss this kind of feeling .. like Ycs ..

Until i entered into college .. thanks God let me know all of u .. my frens .. DBU7 ..

At the beginning , i might not so familiar with them .. i will feel like shy to be with you all .. until now i can Be one of your members .. thank u .. My dearest Friends ..

i admit, i m a shy Gal that will never dare to join with strangers ..Therefore, i need to use 2 years Time to build this relationship.But it is worth ..i never regret , because i know that it doesn't too late .. still got time for me .. to share my college life with you o ..

Emm .. in DBU7. Everyone came from differs background. some are rich .. some are normal family .. and some are came from a single family .. among us .. there are different characters .some are brilliant , some are weak .. just like me .. but, it does matter .. it is because .. in DBU7 .. i had observed something .. that is .. v will always help each other up .. this is the special things that v had ..

Enjoy the study life in Col ..

When i m in Col .. only i wonder .. what a Study Group Are.. I really enjoy the moment V study , revision together .. sitting together .. discuss together .. and even tutor each others .. this is the most touches one .. we will never give up .. when the Problems come .. we will solve it together .. yes .. we really do it .. and this is the only DBU7...

when v Have any difficulties .. Share it together ..

and we will never be alone ..

Together ..
We like to play .. we really do .. we will laugh every moment ..We always have our lunch together .. always will gather at a restaurant.. chit chat together .. until times to sch ..

Celebrated together ..
We will always celebrate each others birthday.. although not everyone .. but .. if the one v remember .. sure v will have it .. V sing K .. Eat Dim sum .. Buffet .. Em .. really Happii .. enjoyable together ..

Sharing is loving ..

Em .. sharing .. sometimes we will also prepare some food to sch ,.. and share it with our friends .. Just like yesterday , v share the mash potato together .. we eat together in the lecture hall .. this is the moment that i will never forget ..

when i am Down , you will oways beside me ..

that day , im moody .. thxs Wei n Winnie .. make me happii .. i knw i m down .. really down .. but you o will never leave me alone .. console me and try to make me happii .. i knw you o have put a lot of effort on it .. i really saw it .. thxs .. my dearest Friends

Hang Out Together ..
Oo .. shopping .. gals love shopping.. while Boys love sing K .. haha .. am i rite? erm. i really enjoy the moment v spent time at fitting Room together .. Try Clothes and crazing take photo together .. I will only dare to do it while hang out with you o ..in fact if i m alone .. i will never do it ..

Gossip together ..
haha .. dnt knw y suddenly i became a president of Gossip gal .. kesian nia .. do i really have potential on this ? i dnt really agree lo ..in fact , i m not so 8 only la .. hehe ..

Wednesday = Setapak kaki went to Chatzroom and have our gossip .. haa .. although not so good to talk on others .. but we just share out our feeling .. this is the only moment v can split out our feeling, opinion ..thank u .. and i really enjoyable to share my feelings .. what i had observed ..
it might not the truth .. but through this gathering .. v knw each other more .. i'm sure about that ..

Yes , DBU7 .. Dearest Friends .. thank you for accomapany me through this Col life .. In this group .. only i found out who am i ..through this group .. i know what

A FRIENDSHIP SHOULD BE ..

雨后总会有一道彩虹！

26/09/09 晴--经过昨天的事，发泄出来了后！ 哇， 我舒服多了~ 虽然，没有谁对与谁错！只是我想太多罢了。可是， 这样一讲出来。 我就知道，我总会有一位可爱的天使守护着我，陪伴我！

这是天主的安排吗？谢谢你，每逢我不开心，伤心想要哭诉时，总会想到你！

我真得很感动！


凌晨5 时了， 我还未入眠，因为我还在床上 转牛角尖！虽然很晚了， 但我也send了一封讯息给嘉歆！～她是我最好的姐妹！　我原本以为ｓｅｎｄ　了只是减轻我的心事的重量！　没想到他会回复我的！　谁知呢～　她为了我，陪我到天亮！　

我真的很感动～！

总会觉得， 我不是最差的！ 当我最失望时，又不想我家人担心时， 总会找她来诉说~

今天，当我睡醒时， 一封亲切的问候， 已温暖了我的心！ 一通电话， 把我的心事，全都说了出来。 我好很多了~ 谢谢！ 虽然你不得空，但谢谢你借了我你的耳朵。 听我唠叨了整个早上！ 谢谢你， 嘉歆。

丑小鸭真的会变成天鹅？？

丑小鸭真的会变成天鹅？？ 还是只是一个童话故事而已呢？我不觉得， 丑小鸭会变成天鹅~！！ 这全都是假的~！！

我来自一个小康之家， 排老二！上有哥哥，下有弟弟～！唯一的女儿是我，从小就很听话，很少叛逆！　因为我知道，　父母会伤心的，所以，从小到大，不敢不听话！　可能这样，所以都不会把心事告诉他们！　怕他们担心！很多时候，就躲在房里哭！　所以跟父母的关系不会有进一步的发展！　我也试过把我的买的东西，　开心的和他们分享！　但，反应不像我想象中的一样！我觉得他们不是很感兴趣！　说真的，　心真的失望！　我不懂，也算了！　

是我思想还不够成熟？还是我在他们心中，我总没有什么地位？不知道，也不想去懂！　心里只想，　有人可以注意到我的存在罢了！我已足够了。　可能天生不出众的我！　没什么优点可以欣赏！我不是什么平学兼优的孩子！　轮资历，妈妈心中，我总不够我哥弟比虽然口头说视为平等的！　但我知道不是！妈妈，总是对他们赞，　但却对我没那么多信心！
虽然，他没说出口，但我心已经懂了！　他总会说“弟弟是会读书的孩子！”。

在家，我总是被忽略！　我心真的很痛！　很痛！　父母说为的公平！　永远都是不一样的！　


有时，我真得很想把他们占为己有！　但我不能！他们总是会重视别人多过我！甚至美凤也在他们眼中重要过我！　总会问到他先，是我自私吗？还是我的错？我真的不是要埋怨，　只是我的正的会失望。家里，　父母都很疼弟，妈妈总是疼哥美！　我？总是会被忽略！　有时，我会特地发脾气，以表现我的不开心！　但还是样的！　
我不懂，　我做的东西为什么不能得到那份关怀呢？为什么？我很想知道咯！　

就算在外电话，　跟哥哥弟弟说，轮到我时，就嫌电话费贵了，　要我少说几句，　为什么呢？可能吧，　我永远都是丑小鸭。　我真的希望有一天，　我能变成白天鹅。　

放假咯~~ ！！

18/9/09 晴-- 嗯,很快的~!! 考试结束了~ 总可以轻松一下了~

再也不用读书到天亮了咯~太好了~当然，第一件事要做的是好好休息！！　

19/9/09 雨～shopping ~~ shopping ~~!!　哇，去了midvalley 走走！～也去看了"Ｇ－ＦＯＲＣＥ" ... 第一次看3D 的！！！ 很excited !! 还带上那 一幅 立体眼睛~！看的画面，　真得很逼真！　犹如抓得着眼前的情景一样～～！！　

20/9/09 晴--　今天是马来人的过年！　每逢佳节，　城市总是比较的静～今天，　我们带了kakak 　．．　一起到johnny 享用午餐～　吃完后，我们到附近逛逛～

２２　九　０９　晴：今天，很开心～！！因为跟老公仔，美凤姐 到金河走走~！

哇， 超享受买东西的过程~ 可能有人给意见吧~！！


23/9/09 晴： “康成之日” 今天到康城走走~！！嗯， 可能之前买 够了~ 所以有点的累了。。走到一半就喊累了~ 但最后还是有买到我的东西。哈哈！所以， 还好拉！！




　

BaCk 2 Me..lacca

Sunday, 02 august 09..

miss u so much ...my dear grandma.. ,

today v r going bac to our kampung (melacca)..since for a long period i had not going bac to visit her ..,miss u so much ..i know i m bad,, cnt always visited to u grandma..im so sry about that ..Besides, my dear is also come along v us ..wah~ i m so happy ...it also quite a long period that he din come to my house ..it feel so good..

As Usual, Im the last person who finish prepared..therefore, many things are not completed prepared.it juz lik kelam kabut until i 4get to bring my toothbrush ..O gosh ..what should i do ?how cn i survive without a toothbrush?haha ..it is unbeliveable..im sure that my bad breath will make people sick..

after v had taken our break+ lunch ..we started our journey ..it wasn't look good ...It is lunch hour. Traffic jam o over the road.wawoo ..v juz lik a little caterpillar keep crawling on the long road..by move on little by little . We were smooth until v reached the coughnut street!! wahaha...

i m pretty tired ..i slept all the way bac to melacca.. once i m in the car, i started my dream ..haha ..it is because the day b4 , i'm rushing my assignment and homewrok .This is what a college life..i had use to it..

we reached around 2 hours of journey..although there have some traffic jam .but , it doesn't make us really sick about it.

finally,we reached Melacca.. wawoo ..everything changes..cousins are all getting bigger, grandma's are also getting white..but , the passion of my heart will never decline.hehe ..love them to much ..

HAPPY MOMENT V FAMILYS
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erm , nothign special until the nite.. after v had prepared ,v went to uncle's house ..hehe ..erm ..everybody gather around and eat durian ...wawoo , every siblings are sitting together .. i LOve this kind of feeling..it really impressed me. although , there are not of the cousins are in ..but , it makes me think bac , when i was still a little gal, cousins and i are always stick together .. As v growthn up, several reason has make us apart..it cant continue lik previous time tat v always play together ..but this nite ..v did it ..not juz cousins .. it comes to mummy's siblings too ..happy and enjoyable moment ..

SuPPeR
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well , it doesn't make us full enough ..therefore, around mid 12.. the young batch went to supper ..haha ..Dear, Felicia, Patricia, patrick and me .. v gather at "kai ma" house .. and go to have our supper..haha ..i tot v are going to eat satay culuk ..my favorioute .. but . ~~ H1n1 .. so ... v din go ..v change to eat duck mee. .~

this is the 1st time i eat the real duck mee (besides instant nood) haha ..erm ..it taste great ..and some more v have a drink ..i had ordered long gan ice milk..(nice)

Morning Mass
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i m late again ..haha ..v r rush to church ..im so sry ..~ dnt know y ..im owes b the last one ..haha ..erm ..daddy drive his naza and fecth us to church ..wawoo ..our car is fully seated ..hehe . . initially, v stand at the corner of the church ..there are no chair 4 us to sit..haha ..(served me rite) gaga .. suddenly i get a call frm daddy said that there are some chairs there ..wawoo...therefore, we go to him ..hehe ..

i dnt lik this father, honestly,.. because he talk nothing besides money ..wawoo ~~ bored to hear tat .. the time passed by slowly ..and finally ..the mass is end .

BaB@ & NYonyA's
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v went to eat wan tan mee after church ..it is a old shoplot that full of customer...this wan tan mee has sold since i was young ..it is quite famous ..and i knew my dad really liks this "wan TAn MEe" ... everytimes v bac to melacca , he will always eat this wan tan mee .. i heard my daddy say. they looks lik chinese,but actually they are baba nyonya ..therefore, they doesnt speak fluent mandarin..mayb some malay and a little bit of mandarin only..


Long Nap
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after lunch , i took a looooonnggg nap ..aroung 4 hours of nap ..wawoo ..i dont know y im so tired ..mayb when i bac to hometown ..i will feel vry relax and is time 4 me to have a good rest.

B@c To HOme ..
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around 8 something ..v started our journey ...and bac to our home ..during the journey ..it appears little traffic jam ... but after some times ..it goes bac to smooth ..end up ..v reached home around 10 p.m.

hapi bfday ..Mummy !!

Happy birthday to mummy ...

25th of July, Sunny - Today is my mum's birthday ..on the other hand, my cousin has visited me on the same day too.. wawoo..i m pretty busy on that day!!

On this day, i get up a little bit early than normal day! bcs i had made a appointment v the dentist to have checked up with my teeth! ...Bored ~~

on the half way checking, my cousin has reached there! wawoo ..i m so excited to have a look on her bf ..haha ..we took them back tomy house from old town (rampai)..!~

Precious Lunnch
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after we had prepared, jay..wei ..Rui( wei's bf) and me went to midvalley to have our lunnch.im so hungry, bcs i have eat nothing ..pretty hungry ,..but luckily, within 20 min , we reached there.
We enjoy our lunnch in a thai Restauran! i had ordered a tomyam fried rice,! but ...it is too spicy 4 me ..i cnt even eat half of the rice..dear juz exchange the food v me ..! thank u .my dear ..!

i tot v will have a enjoyable time in the shopping mall, crazying shop ..,unfortunately , after our lunmch ..they planned to bac ..

thank u ..Wei nd Rui ..for buying a beautiful cake 4 my mum ..haha ..after they fecthed us bac , they continue on their plan ...hang out again ..i dnt know where r they going..but i m pretty tired on tat time.

JusCo
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although im tired, but comes to "Shopping"..WAwoo ..iwill become passion ..after tat, Mei fong ,jay n me when to Jj..haha ..this times i bring along my little baby Kenneth ..

while v ( MF n ME ) are shopping, jay has done a great duty ..looking at my baby ..thank 4 ur loves ya ..my dear ..im so luckily to have u this Bf ..thank u ...he did a great job. .mayb in others eye ..it doesn't means anything, but 4 me ..i will add on the marks to him..

He bring KEnneth to playground n play there ..
i know he is a good person, caring and ..Gud person ..thank u my dear ..u makes my baby happy..same goes to me ..i will also feel happy to have u ...thank u ..He spend RM 8 for my kenenth ..haha ...kenneth is juz enjoying the playground ..

Dinner
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we had our Dinner at K.S ..we always do that when someone's bfday ..therefore , nothing is surprise!~~ but , daddy enter a wrong way , and make us waiting for so long for the dinner ...
8 something only v reached the place.. v r so hungry man ..fortunately , the food are fast ..if not ..wawoo
i think im faint ..wahaha

Happy Bfday
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Happy bfday to u ..hapi bfday to u ..happii bfday to Mummy ,! happi Bfday to u ...
Mum , happy bfday .!! ~~

MaicS@

MAICSA
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11 July, Saturday..Sunny;

Today , i woke at 5 o'clock in the morning....i m so excited ..because today our school are having a TAlk for us..it is

...MAICSA( Malaysia Institute Ceat Secretary Administration)..

WAwoo.. .. i m having a nice day today ..really fun ..

in the beginning of the function, we have our presidents to give their welcome address.. maybe i wake up in the early morning ..therefore i was pretty tired in that moment..try to awake..but still fail to do it ..i just sleep through the section. By the way, some of the students are sleeping in the hall too.. this make me braver to do so ..^.^

After this , we have our breakfast .wawoo ..the breakfast has gain a bad response from us..it is not nice ..haha ..but ..i m still eat it ..because i m so hungry. Besides, i oso saw many of my friends( senior) in the hall ..im so glad and happy that they are there ..the familiar face wont make me so nervous all the time..haha..

Amazing Race
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After having our breakfast, we are ready for our game session( amazing Race) .On the other hand it's also the time to break us up from the group ..But fortunately ..basically are equavalent ..erm ,for our group ..v have 4 new girls enter our group..wawoo ..it is happy to know them.although i still cant recognise their name ..but i pretty sure that we had created a friendship among the group members.

Our group is ~ GoVernance ~ ..haha .. well , basicly we are juz enjoying those game..it also taught me much how to created communication with the members and gain some tips of games for YCS later ..haha ..eRm ..It is enjoyable ..having fun all through the games...really fun ..haha ..

Game section:
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1 . hand and leg with the number
2. baloon with each part of our body
3. memorize and walk through the ice path with bare foot
4. blow the ping pang ball until become ibecome a old lady

haha .. and the last game has been cancel because of the time is over ..

Our Precious LUnnch
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wawoo.. after the games ,most of us are so energetic ..haha ..everyone is started to snap photo with their friends ...haha ...for sure ..i am also one of them ..v are just keep on take photo to each other ... i am enjoying the process of taking photo ..it just lik everybody are grouped together to share and chat ... lik this feeling ..vry secure for me ..

WEll ...it took quite long time for us to have our luNnch ,,...it is because ..our food has gone to Kepong area ..=.="' ..swt ..therefore we are just waiting..keep on waiting ..from the words "On the Way...10 minutes ..5 minutes ...and lastly we get our food .. it does make all of us crazy ..and everybody was just enjoy their food silently ..haha

After Lunnch .. the next programme is sharing experiences ..erm ..mayb from here ..i get some idea about my future ..although i dnt know whether in future i can success to finish this study or not ..but ..an idea comes to my mind is ..Now is the time to study ..after school is the time for me to work ...not learn ..as they said .. study continuosly ...and focus on wat teacher say while lecturing ..i think it should be not hard to achieve the goal ..

The highest peak of the event.. the indoor section ...wawoo ..this game is so funny ..haha ..everybody is required to act out the word..haha ..it comes so many funny action ..got Transformer..got MJ ..Mr. bean
haha .. the cutest is Sperm ??!!! ... lol ..everybody is so shy to act out this action.. But we get funs from the games ..really enjoyable ..haha ..

Lastly ...is the Dancing section ..everybody is just reached highest peak ,,,shouting and cri de couers ..SYOK ...haha ...

Happy day ..happy to spent whole day here ..it worth ..besides the accident(LunNch) ..haha ..everything is nice and Good ...Happy ^.<

你是我的 。好姐妹

你是我的好姐妹
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7 月３号， 晴；

家里独生女的我，从小就渴望有姐妹的疼爱！ 小时候，我有很多的知己！可能年龄还嫩，没想到这样的复杂！但随着年龄的成长，知己可是慢慢的变少了！我很荣欣能在茫茫人海中，找到了一个好姐妹的知己！

她……

我也忘了我们是几时认识的，但我知道我们是主日学的同学！她是一个很害臊的女孩！ 不多话说，总是静静的坐在一旁！

直到……

在我中学的时候，我还记得，又一次的生活营里， 我看到了她的成长！是营里的一个奇迹！从不说话的她，变得肯站在前面分享！虽然事隔了很久， 但在我的脑海里还是很清晰！ 看着她一步步的往前面的舞台站上！ 我的心很安慰！ 因为，看到她的参与！ 我很开心·真的！

就是这样， 我们就认识了·我们开始了我们的友情！我还记得， 那时候的她还是很害臊！但，我知道，她再也不像以前那样了！她会主动地参与,分享！很开心

随着学青的成立，中秋晚会，报佳音， 学青的一次的生活营…………慢慢的我们就一点一点的建立起了我们的友谊！我，马德里，她！ 可称得上是好姐妹·

她，

已变得开朗的女孩，爱听日本的歌！爱鼓励我！ 她是我的最佳的聆听者！　

做了很多的事情， 让我觉得很感动！犹如 第一次和她一起创作！！　

　　　　　　在我最低落时，
　　　　　　　　　　　是她，第一个懂得！我从没告诉她！

　　　　　　　　　　　　　但她就像是天主派给我的天使，
　　　　　　
　　　　　　　　　每当不开心，是她……　给我安慰，给我诉苦··

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　谢谢你！


我们虽不是时常见面， 见面时间可说是少之又少！ 但我们的感情不会因而改变！ 可能称得上是正真的姐妹吧！

我不知这不是巧遇，而是天主的安排

谢谢你！嘉歆

噩梦

DBU7--友谊
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2009 ，7 月3 日， 晴；

天气晴朗的早上， 我有如平常那样上课去！今天是星期五所以是妈妈载我去学校的！ 上完课后， 同学们犹如蜜蜂般的粘在一起，我们一伙一起去用餐！嗯，近来大家都熟系了大家！所以，当大家参在一起时，都不会有什么的代沟！　

为了找回自己，所以我也选择各种管道来找自己！可能，这也是一个很好的管道！一大班朋友在一起哈拉时，很开心　没有压力！可能慢慢的懂了，原来这也不会做些什么不好的！　只是一个地方，　有人认同你，有人关心，有人可以分担你的包袱！我会觉得，ｅｅ．．是我想多了！

大家一起聚餐，不算难的！但我很珍惜！　我会很享受这份友谊！我想他也是一样！只是，我的约束，让他和朋友之间必须要被破坏！　对不起，可能我会很怕，　怕寂寞，怕有一天犹如电视剧里的情节！　离开了我！　…………

可怕的噩梦
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在同一天里， 我也接到了不好的消息！ 让我的心很难过，犹如被打破的心灵！我接到了（他母亲）伯母真实了不好的结果！ 哇， 我的眼泪忍不出要出来了！ 但我不敢， 因为怕伤害他！ 当我一人在房间时， 我不知不觉地哭了！

为什么哭？！ 因为我对不起她！ 伯母，对不起！ 虽然想亲口跟她说， 但没这勇气！平时，他总是来我家，陪我，但我却忽略了她！

亲爱的母亲， 没人在家宁愿在家默默的等待， 也不出声！ 她， 是一个很好的母亲！ 可称得上是好母亲！ 可是，我却因为要人陪， 而被逼忽略了她！ 现在，我的心真的有点难过！
我会为她祈祷，

我不懂啊爸，父！是否会聆听！ 但我相信你的旨意！ 我相信， 你有你的安排！ 我把她完全的奉献在你的手上！ 请求你的带领，赐她力量去打败这病吧！ 愿主与你同在！
阿门！！

亲爱的， 你要坚强！无论多难的困苦，我也会与你度过的！ 加油！

　

- 我是谁？- -

七月 二日； 晴

祝福－
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现在是凌晨的3.56 分！ 但是，我无法入眠...虽然有时间可以睡, 但是心很不开心，矛盾！我不知道我到底是真么了！ 但是，最近很烦！学校的课业 和感情！ 让很辛苦,快要全不过气来了！‘

最近发生了很多事,让我也不敢再烦他了！我知道他忍受了很多的压力·我也知道，他不会要跟我讲，仿佛我现在这样！愿意在这里写，也不想告诉他！因为，我不想解释！ 不想再说！不想再烦他！因为我们再也会不像以前那样了！可能我说错了，但我心真的有点的碎了！要完美如以前，是不可能的事了！

人是不停的改变着，经过发生的事情，而改变自己来缓和那环境。犹如地球不停的在旋转那样！我不知道！ 我也不想！但是，我必须这样！ 很所时候，自己的执著，唯有让自己带来的麻烦而已！为什么要这样呢？有这个必要吗？

很多时候，我会如何埋怨，为什么？因为，只想到自己的利益! 为什么？！正真的我呢？还是这就是我？到底我会不开心到几时呢？是什么问题呢？

其实，我知道！ 昨天和JOSPEHINE 一起！ 她告诉了我很多很多！让我觉得我是那么的渺小！ 我知道的！我是多么的不成熟！

我会要他陪着我，我会要他天天想起我，但原来男生不是这样的！女生和男生的结构都不一样！我赞成！ 男生的EQ比女生得来的好！ 他们处理压力来的细腻！ 女生就会大发脾气！男生不会像你当他看不到你时！但女生这会无时无刻的想你…………

我呢？哈哈！　当然是女生咯！　会发脾气，会不开心·但我最不开心时，我就会躲在一旁的哭！　因为不想解释，也不敢面对！　这就是我！我想得到人家的许可，认同！　我怕寂寞！　我真得很怕！因为当我一个人时，可能就是我乱想的时候！

男生爱自由！同样这也是我难接受的事了！但是，我得要这样做！ 他，不属于我的物品！ 他又他的性格，朋友，他的爱好！我不能这样的绑着他！　像关在笼子里的小鸟·一旦失去自由， 他宁愿死来解脱！ 当他过得好过你时，你应该祝福，而不是改变它·　不可以那人家和你比较！　因为这会令你更辛苦！　是的，我很辛苦！　我真的很辛苦！　想过放弃，但是有没有胆量去承受那压力！　那到底我是怎样？！…………

我太集中于他了！ 当看的太多， 就会令你一只看到他的缺点！我知道，他已在这阶段了！ 我知道，我太过不成熟了！ 我可以有朋友（男），犹如他和女生一样的谈话！我知道，我再也不能像以前那样的傻！只会为他想，而改变了我！到最后，改变是没用的·……

我应该为自己想想！ 我也有我的性格！ 那以前快乐的我呢？去了哪？我一定要在他伤我时，找回自己，并祝福他的一切！ 开心……快乐……友谊！！！ 我不该再这样！我该是时候，找回我了！！！愿天上的啊爸，父，能赐给我力量！　我需要勇气！　

19岁的生日

二月21号 ； 晴--- 哇， 不知不觉我又大了一岁（19　 再也没有饽饽脆了）！！ 哈哈！很怀念，那种青春 少艾的感觉！这种感觉，可知在回忆中回味了．

亲手做的生日蛋糕
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就在我生日的前一天早上，　我们就跑到远处去寻找单杠的材料！经过了一番的努力，感谢天主，这一切都做好了！
嗯，虽然这蛋糕不完全是他做的！ 但是使我们一起去完成的蛋糕！ 一起分工合作的感觉，很温馨，很开心！！虽然做出来的蛋糕看相不是那么的好，但是，这可是充满了
　“爱心”　的蛋糕。　就在凌晨的十二点正，我们俩一起分享这美味的蛋糕！　　　　　　　　１９Th　亲爱的为我做的蛋糕＝strawberry　ｃｈｅｅｓｅ　



平平淡淡的１９ｔｈ生日
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以往的生日，总会到外面庆祝一番。但是，今年可不一样了哦！可是在家平淡得过！原来，不是每次到外狂逛一天，才快乐的！　在家和亲爱的家人度过也有不同的感觉！给我，我会比较喜欢呆在家！和自己爱的人谈谈天，说说笑也是很开心！今天，本来打算了很多很多地方去做不同的东西！如：钓虾，　爬山，等等....但是，到最后还是全都泡汤了。


丰富的海鲜餐
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哈哈，我们哪里都没去，多多少少都有些原因的！！！因为要等着去（Kuala Selangor) 吃海鲜大餐哦! 我们大约６．３０　左右出发！　在出发前，　我们还到 Jusco 去接弟弟！　可爱的弟弟，得知我生日后，买了一份可爱的礼物送给我！哈哈, 是一个摆放电话的娃娃( 名为小沙发）
我很喜欢这张小沙发！ 可爱极了！ 哈哈，可是第一个男生送娃娃给我哦。体贴的弟弟还买了两个摆放的！ 好让我和他的电话都可以一起享用！ 谢谢你，弟！


沿途中我们一直狂拍照，哈哈！　

我和亲爱的在车里！ 爱你哦！

美丽的晚霞！



终于都到了！坐了几个小时的车程， 我可饿扁了！哈哈！　我们点了很多的海鲜美食！　如：螃蟹，虾，啦啦，蚌（妈妈的最爱）还有其它！哇，看得我垂涎三尺！　哈哈！开心极了！　我们边吃边聊！　感觉很温馨！　很开心！　感谢天主给了我一个这么温馨的生日！

一个不懂得的惊喜
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哈哈，吃了晚饭后，我们每到那里去玩了！因为天已暗了！ 也没什么好地方去游玩了！ 哈哈！ 我们就开开心心的回家去！我还记得，晚上下起了大雨！哥哥小心翼翼的驾驶！到家的时候，突然看到熟悉的面孔！“啊，是咏涵”弟弟叫了出来！ 哈哈，我看了看，的确是她，那时，我的心就暗地里知道了，啊，使他们旁我庆祝生日吧！ 哈哈，果然，我一下车就看见学青们来我家了！ 哈哈，不必问，一定是我的男朋友为我计划的！哈哈！嗯，很开心，因为他为了我做这么多的东西！买了蛋糕，　又和我庆祝，又陪我一整天！ 开心极了！ 哈哈！爱你哦！　　　　　　　　　　　美丽的生日蛋糕

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　切蛋糕了咯


　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　我和家人
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　全家福


小小的瑕疵
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虽然是我的生日会，但是我有点觉得这个生日主角被冷落了！ 我没有因为这样而生气！ 但有点难过，在我们的团体里，讲究的是团体！ 看见我们这一辈的老青，以致滔滔不绝的说自己的痛惜，以往的风采，但是，却忽略了新的执委！虽然，我尝试过，也讲过！但是从觉得没人会理会！ 说真的，真的有点难过！ 不想以后的学青有这样的问题！因为这可是最大问题！　
虽然，感觉上这个派对来得不是时候！ 因为看见眼前的小妹妹闷闷的坐在一旁！可怜的，插不进一句话！心有点的惭愧！

我的礼物
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很开心哦！收到了姐妹们的礼物！当天晚上， 眉送了我一件漂亮的裙子！
我很喜欢！　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　谢谢你，秀眉

何家两姐妹
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谢谢你们送我的礼物！很别致！哈哈！谢谢了哦！我会好好地看那本可爱的书的

哥哥与未来大嫂的礼物
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哇，　我爱这礼物极了！！！　包包也！还是我最爱的白色！爱死它了！谢谢啦！！　
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　白色包包

谢谢你们哦！让我有个快乐的19岁的生日！ 亲爱的！ 谢谢你， 我真得很开心！